So I researched recipes for egg rolls, and started mixing up bits and pieces from different versions and out of my feverish head) to come up with this, my very own egg roll recipe.
My recipe includes pork and shrimp. It's best to prepare each of these first, then set them aside. You can do these days in advance. You can move to the next step and finish preparing the filling. The only thing you cannot do in advance is fill and wrap the egg roll without frying it within a few minutes.
Marinated Cooked Shrimp
1/2 pound fully cooked salad-size shrimp (100-150 shrimp per pound), defrosted, rinsed, patted dry. Next time, I am going to try with medium shrimp.
1/2 teaspoon granulated garlic
1/2 teaspoon ground ginger
1/2 tablespoon soy sauce
1/2 tablespoon honey
1/2 tablespoon sugar
1/2 tablespoon sherry
1/2 tablespoon hoisin sauce
1/2 tablespoon Hokan chili sauce with garlic
1/2 teaspoon ground black pepper
2 tablespoons oyster sauce
1 tablespoon soy sauce
2 teaspoons sesame oil
2 teaspoons sugar
1/2 teaspoon salt
canola oil for frying
4-5 cloves finely chopped garlic
equivalent amount finely chopped ginger
3-4 scallions, white and green parts sliced diagonally
2 red chili peppers (looks a bit like a red jalapeño), seeded, deveined, halved crosswise, cur into matchsticks
Fry the egg rolls in batches until golden brown, stirring occasionally for overall browning, about 2 to 3 minutes. Remove from the oil and drain on paper towels. Serve warm with the Orange Apricot Dipping Sauce.
1/2 cup apricot preserves
2 1/2 tablespoons Gold's prepared horseradish
1 tablespoon Hokan Chinese chili sauce with garlic
I have shared the most personal experience of my brief hospitalization, out here publicly because I know my situation is not unique. If you ever find yourself hitting bottom, contemplating a final solution, GET HELP. And then, immediately develop a relationship with a psychiatrist and a therapist. God bless the depressed, and God help us. It's not easy feeling grief.